That's all I've been asking. In selfish ways like "why isn't this going my way, why can't I have it my way ,why doesn't homework disappeared so I can sleep more(and blog more), why did my old classes suck so much so now they put me in suckier classes, why doesn't (?) notice me, why do I have these silly little thoughts that I know will never happen n matter how much, why do I feel absolutely nothing towards the death of somebody, why after hearing the death of somebody do I automatically wanna live an extra 10 years (I feel like a horrible human for the second to last one. ), why am I so god damn horrible, why do I suck at spelling, why do I not really eat lunch at school, most importantly why am I me? I could of been someone else. Someone popular someone cool or a whore give or take.
And in non selfish ways why does Chi (deftones) have to be in a coma? Why did he have to be in that car crash? Why would people create genocide? Why hate to an extreme? But if I say that's not important I will get a talking to. Like any other my age I'll just tune it out. Draw in the margins of my paper of daydream about well nothing important. Maybe an awesome battle between Jesus and Mohamed or God vs. Satan like the old Egyptian myth about the sun god and the moon(I forgot) god battling it out for the sun to rise every morning. Amazing.or I'll listen and then walk away in the middle of a sentence because it was sooo boring. With the person yelling at me for my lack of manners. I'll blame it on in the future for being a teenager. Teenagers don't have morals or manners right? We're mindless sexbots with to much free time, right? Maybe that's true for some of us, but not for most of us. Not for me! Why not for me? Because I cooler (or what some other people say not cool enough) well who cares it's all a matter of opinion. I want a payday( the candy) or real money I'll take both
EDIT! I realized what are my favorite things in life. It was pretty sad fellow H!O chatters. I'm going insane.

bye.